Impossible is Nothing?

an oldie--" Every Breath You Take" from The Police

Puff Daddy borrowed the melody of " Every Breath You Take" and recorded "I'll Be Missing You" in memory of Notorious B.I.G.

Going home?

Next Wednesday, my parents will come to Taipei to help me pack up and bring me home.

This is the first time my dad come to Taipei to see me, though the last time also,for

the past five years. What a reunion! In a sense i am confused where is my home. I have

been here for too a long time that i might have already mixed up between dorm and home.

Most of my good friends are here ,all those bittersweet memories of my youth are

here.Am I really going home or I am just going back to somewhere where i can live

with my parents and be able to fulfill the definition of family ??? I need time to

figure it out. Be a homme! Maybe you are going home!

nba經典賽

昨天托家教學生的福去了特別區的位置

看了一下要8000!!!!!!

結果那四個nba 傳奇人物 根本就在擺爛

虧我對Scottie Pippen和 Clyde Drexler 期待超大!!


還好不用錢 不然真想去消基會告他們

不過特別區藝人超多

到後來根本在四處亂喵

算是唯一的收穫.

畢業嚕

昨天去把離校手續辦一半後

終於順利成為了畢業生

我不像Dustin Hoffman在畢業生裡面　那麼多煩惱

我整天只需要幸福的當個freeloader

不過學校辦事效率也很快

昨天一回到宿舍就不能上網了

教官又說要有人要進住　要搬離

真的成為校友了　

不過狡兔三窟

歐歐　不只　

我有一拖拉庫的窟

所以想待的話應該其實也能待到高興為止　

前幾天去親人家

發現好多香水

裡面有一罐　女用burberry 粉紅色


超好聞 (雖然還是小小潔的香水比較好聞)

偷偷噴了一推 整個購買慾混雜著香水不斷的慫恿我

月底有錢...真的會考慮

習慣

習慣是一種兩面的東西

他能讓你對某些事情很專注

她也能悄悄地佔據妳心裡 讓你有一天驚然發現你不能沒有她

好習慣這時候有人可以講電話

好習慣這時候有人可以給我甜甜的笑聲

好習慣這時候有人讓我說我愛妳

好習慣這時候有人跟我說晚安

我好孤單

我得習慣

我得養成習慣好好習慣這種孤單

晚安

寂寞轟炸 --fat boy used to be cool once........

這首我喜歡
所以失落的時候 先萬不要靠吃東西來排解

How to Break a Blog

我們的影片

今天排演

其實整體還漫有趣的

雖然場地變小 受限真的很大

不過真的錄影時

居然放了三次槍 而且是一開始不久

全部流程都自己編的 自己當場腦袋空掉

其實也沒覺得很自責 雖然好像應該有

我反省了一下

最近一個禮拜真的人生太低潮了

做什麼事都心不在焉 想東想西 變的有點煩躁

一直覺得沒什麼好失去的了

原來其實我還是有什麼可以失去的

需要的正是這一種手中還握有點什麼的感覺



什麼都好!

Hey!

一切還是到了這一個臨界點

我很難過地高興來到了這一個點

我也還沒什麼心理準備

不過就是來到了

是誤會 是交錯

不管如何都只能說我蠢 我的態度 我的俗臘

跟妳在一起 我也很輕鬆 很開心 也有感覺

就開心吧 開開心心爽爽的就好

想起了 John Donne 的 A Valediction Forbidding Mourning 裡面的圓規

我們的圓規需要的不只是一個歐洲大小了

而是要從台灣的WEST SIDE 到美國的EAST SIDE

這圓規要好大好大

缺了勇氣沒關係

開心就好

Silence!

Everytime, after a long day's odyssey , I open the door of my dorm , how desperately I hope how there were no one inside ; darness and absolute silence are all I want .. Don't take it the wrong way, my dormmates are ok . It is my personality that come into play again. I am just like a saturatedly soaked sponge , so i really dont hava much mood left for banters , and i am not that kind of person that would parade what deed have been done or vent all those grievance heaped during the day, i would rather just think about them and take a deep breath most of the time. I have a dream : a single room.

first time in my life i feel impulsive to wrtite something

You can know everyone and fuck everyone on this planet and feel damn coldly lonely at the same time..because it is all spininng without you.

I cant understand what u say and i cant understand where i am standing right now for you.. and i cant understand whether I stand a fucking minor chance at all or it is juts a wistful thinking at all.

I am addicted to the beauty ,disguised and indisguised, of u,and I am the only one on this planet who can see , feel , and preotect this beauty.

This a cure , a cure make me forget how good it feels to smoke and this is a poison , a poison get me smok even more than ever.

Please Get me guts to tear you apart to let the beauty inside out. I love u , so pure.

a poem

"A Slumber Did My Spirit Seal"

A slumber did my spirit seal;
I had no human fears:
She seemed a thing that could not feel
The touch of earthly years.

No motion has she now, no force;
She neither hears nor sees;
Rolled round in earth's diurnal course,
With rocks, and stones, and trees.



This poem is from William Wordsworth, whom ,actually ,I am not that fond of.But this poem is so uncharacteristic of him and graet ,though short.I have made a comment about it in a poetry class and you are welcome to say anything about this as following:

In “ A Slumber Did My Spirit Seal”, Wordsworth uses the past tense in the first stanza and present tense in the second stanza to demonstrate a intense contrast not only grammatically but also mentally to Wordsworth. In the first stanza , Wordsworth points out that he no longer have fears because his love has transcended the bound of aging and mortality (the touch of earthly years). In the second stanza, the feeling of loneliness, somehow, emerges, which can be seen In the line “No motion has she now ,no force; She neither hears nor sees.” And now she is accepted as apart of Nature, ticking with the flow of Nature for good just like rocks, and stones , and trees. In this poem, we don’t see a sorrowful word at all and Wordsworth take a somehow poised attitude; it may be the fact, with which Wordsworth identifies(as we can see in those previous poems we read) ,that Nature will always bring forth something really matters gives Wordsworth that kind of aplomb.

好悲哀

都快沒錢吃飯了

還會掏錢去買菸

范仲淹

敎教我不以物喜 不以己悲

雖然你的詩我也沒廿幾首

拜託敎敎我

救救我

我也想好好呼吸好好活...

三軍總醫院

這地方畢業後應該也將會是我會想起的地方.

陪朋友來了三次,今晚自己去了一次.

醫生說不能流汗

那明天世新要來拍片也只能看看了..

我的川崎你要乖! 別頑皮!

我和我的小黑炭

他就叫小黑碳了,這名子其實是高中時幾個女生幫我取的..後來想想還不錯..

讓我的小黑炭,照亮眼前那灰暗的路,黑中帶紅又帶熱 ..

智商不到20

最近腦袋都用來抵抗外患,

要考試的東西都要到前一天才念,

都只剩老弱殘兵..

頭腦好重好重.....

好不敏感...

給我點威爾剛,我要再抬起頭來...

a meaningful clip

When u skate (everything else also i think), it is really awesome to know that u r not alone and u will always get those cheers that keep the spirit of skateboarding fresh even after like million times of failures. We are the cockiest bunch on earth ever , even someday we all sex change into some cockless pussies--still we are the cockiest.

to Ginotin

Can't remember when was the very late time i saw your smile and the grating symphony we orchestrated together by those bearings in the wheels of our skateboards. The love pattern woven from azalea by lovers in the lawn at the maingate seems like the amorphous clouds gifted from above -- sweet yet fleeting.
And you are flown to a place with more sunshine and it will beam through the tangled complexity of love and vaporize the tears on your face--then I will see your smile again and the symphony shall be heard again.

keats

今天上完這位屌哥的詩, 教授說他很愛描寫高潮完的低潮,我突然想起了上禮拜去看的舞台劇動物性感傷, 托吳依晨小姐的福,我對這齣戲才有更近一步的了解, 導演是個女的,後來想想也有道理能把那麼細膩的東西講出來,絕對不是我這種宅男能夠辦到的,我了解的也止於這名詞生物上的定義.感傷本來就沒絕對上的意義,吳依晨小姐比喻的很好,就像一個波的圖一樣有波峰有波谷. 再哪一個點並不重要重要的是你前一秒的位置.就像搭訕妹一樣,要到電話那一霎那,拿著她的號碼就像在戰場中舉起了敵方將領頭顱一般,在朋友歡呼聲中趾高氣昂. 接下來呢? 怎嚜約,拿時約,約去哪?? 話說回來北教大的戲劇社真的狠猛,下次有一定得在去. 吳依晨小姐也很秋,原來拿過畫畫全國第三,難怪可以給我那麼多啟示.. 不賴! 真的是artist..

小蔣的東東

Eve of Destruction

披著黑色外套，我向前助跑幾步。鬆手。將懸空的的滑板踩跺到地面。以一點速度在人群中逡巡穿插，像寒鴉在層雲間飛行。人們驀地回頭，恐懼或者厭惡，從眉梢的蹙褶中流出。有人怒目相瞪，有人唇間唸唸有辭，有人則急忙走避，向兩側跳開。我遂想起梵谷，漆黑的烏鴉遮蔽晚天，低飛掠過麥田，逼迫金黃的麥穗傾倒向兩旁。這是他最後的畫作，數週後，那位躁鬱的畫家舉槍，讓子彈射入自己的胸膛。我感到莫名的恐懼。可是，扮演自己恐懼的事物，我的朋友，總讓人興奮，總讓人怖慄而感傷。好像快要下雪了。孤獨地坐在房間，和一隻貓對望。那是隻黑色的貓，腳掌卻是白的，像穿著高低不齊的白色短靴。他從桌面迤邐而來，跳上我的大腿，蜷臥在柔軟的外套上，注視著我手中，已然翻閱的詩集。那是何雅雯的詩他們挽緊了自己因為末日將至而唧唧奔跑像一個個滾圓的日子在公園裡踱步到老我想著小時候，撲蝴蝶的細網在手中揮舞，或許歡樂，或許爛漫，可惜網不住汩汩的時間。有時我們感到憂鬱。對世界的無力感，像漫天的晚雲覆蓋，我們低頭，沉默不語而，瞥見黑貓對我們的淚水，慵懶地打打呵欠。有時我們感到焦躁，忿忿踩上滑板，對所有堅硬的路障作出卡招──庫奇、五歐或者板頭，感受輪架與障礙的撞擊撕裂，可惜多半在無數次大摔之後，被迫面對自己的窘困與，他人不解的目光。我們像刃傷的士兵，躺倒在遍地泥濘之中，我的朋友，而大雨正滂沱。彷彿等待著什麼。式微式微，胡不歸？微君之故，胡為乎中露？是不是像凌性傑的詩句印象派的風裡彷彿有些什麼盛開，值得相信是的，究竟有些什麼盛開？我想起幾年來的這個季節，我總是把誰當成我的盾、把誰當成我的劍、我的鎧甲、我的戰袍。而我又想成為誰的飛將軍，為誰征戰匈奴── 縱然一輩子不能封侯。那些紛沓而至的時光，我總在學習背棄，學習不寫情詩──或者，至少從後設觀點寫起──我說，開到荼靡花事了，我等待的人，妳也該凋謝了。而落紅，不是無情物，化作春泥，開在另一座花海之中，這是你要的自由。而印象派的風裡我們，依稀相信的輪廓，也已是輕盈的蒲公英，漸次飛散，在向晚昏黃的天空。Eve of destruction，世界正在瓦解，所有意義，所有信仰都在腐朽之中，每一分都是最後一分，每一秒都是最後一秒，除了狂歡節式的舞踊，我的朋友，我們還能懷抱什麼？我低頭，看著大腿上，縮成毛球的黑貓一顆。他舉高腳掌，張開乳白色的小爪，又深藏起來。我說，晚來天欲雪。他開口，回答了幾聲什麼，我卻一句也聽不懂。坐在行政大樓旁，讓疲憊的身體暫時休息，看著風一般迎面吹來的正妹，看著大家輪番作招，我的朋友，晚來天欲雪，能飲一杯無？我們再喝一杯珍珠奶茶。大雪落降之前，我確實相信，我們可以用endorphins抵抗這個，一再背叛的世界。

2006-03-24 初稿

謝天

今天雖然也是一個長安不見使人愁的天氣,不過至少沒有下雨. 首先我得先對小紅說抱歉,連續兩天晃了你點.. 對不起阿!! 我玩板時都會忘了一切,手機當然..... 我很喜歡你的構想喔! 以滑板為主軸拍攝我宅宅的一天生活.來呈現我的 a day in the life, 還要拍我宅宅的宿舍.... 我在世新大學的名聲就靠你了(個人的宅幻想).. 不過我發現小紅的積極程度遠超出我的想像..恩敬佩敬佩..該多多學習..有想法還得去做才是.
後來阿興說那天柳丁帶來的人有一個叫"是元介",幹也沒什麼嘛! 到後來還不是只能在旁邊拍我跟柳丁pk. 柳丁也輕鬆幹掉阿. 我看我也來創一個 "洨味覺醒"來試試看市場接納度如何才是,不過那個是元介也蠻瞎的,後來都在旁邊拍原地那種騙人感覺很高的ollie..(雖然這種事我高中和阿炮也常做.而且我們都堪稱ppprrrooo) .........期中考好像也快到了..新辦好的學生證要用阿..總圖總圖!

小蔣的詩 也祝福小蔣

親愛的好友
我六萬萬個字我懂不到幾千個字
不過只希望你快樂開朗地活在這六萬萬個字裡面

明朗的午後也有人

忙著曝晒堆積的夢想

比對成長的拼圖

像一棵巨大的榕樹

無力地垂下氣根，淋雨經年

早已習慣漫漶黏膩地思惟

寄身其中的小蟲們

多想揚起金色的羽膜

在代序的季風之中？

秋晴萬里的日子

大家都懷藏累累傷痕

時間走了我就去追

跑起來輕快卻也不無感傷

大風吹起小小的願望

耳邊盡是不合時宜的老歌

曾經左轉的那個路口

什麼時候

已經掛滿茂密的長春藤

再來要去哪裡？或者

什麼時候該要出發？

一路拾獲不堪的問題

也隨手丟棄用過的答案：

哪裡都好，祇要不是

當下。生活的旅館堂皇而

無可奈何，而持續重建翻修

一座花園我越走越深

夥同圍繞的向日葵一起怒放

微笑，面向和煦的陽光

一個故鄉我不曾擁有

卻也到處聲聞鄉愁

來自海東的候鳥紛紛埋首

在舊時的毳羽之間

暖風裡曲蜷著趾爪，再不走

就來不及了

來不及了

站在午後的廣場邊緣

樹影推移緩慢，綠得這麼假

黑夜還有一段距離

寒流還有，一段距離然而

好像有些什麼尚未完成

2006-11-14 初稿

2007 台大文學獎佳作

the Tao of 宅

有鑒於今天太多人詢問我的狀態.乾脆po篇文章好了. 也記錄了我宅男生涯的寫照....................
今天上完英文課,如往想去公館買點吃的,陪著上課的同學走回去宿舍後(嘿!回高雄順利嚕),一個人宅宅的跑去了大門找點吃的, 逛到一家手機吊飾店,感覺還不賴,停了下來, 宅宅的排起了隊,突然眼睛一亮,天阿!! 前面那女的不就是我之前一直想認識可是不敢行動的霹靂正妹, 然後互看了一眼(媽的! 死色宅!),她跟我說我看起來很面熟,然後我當然就裝起熟來了,感覺像樂透中了頭獎一樣,我居然在顫抖, 心想不行不行 !莊阿宅你要鎮定,所以我拿起了我的caster 7想藉由尼古丁來沖緩這突如其來的衝擊, ,順手拿起我帥氣的zippo 打火機,幹!我的手居然勾著我的caster7在一同做頻率奇快無比的簡協運動. ok! 然後換我買了,她在旁邊等我,此時整個有種茫茫然的感覺....手上的caster7 似乎已變成了供桌上的的祭香,實質上的意義已經不復存只剩下那象徵上的意義. 此時我居然跟她說掰掰.God!我在幹碼! 我完全沒想說這一句話阿!不過潛意識總是比理智早了一步, 她看著我說:那我先走了喔! 然後我居然又說:那掰掰嚕!!! 潛意識又比理智早了一步.幹! 然後她就walks in beauty when we two parted.(詩看太多了).宅宅的一個人,又宅宅的走了回去.路上突然覺得台北好冷好冷.......
我不是很會聊的那一種,除非女生很會聊,不然我真的很怕.. 之前看牙醫也是,不過真的要謝謝她很有耐心陪我嘴砲,在醫生走掉時不會無聊,還偷偷幫我做了兔寶寶牙齒,離職後剩下護士的服務都超差....講那麼多,哀哀! 明天希望是晴天,讓我滑一整天吧..

剛拉梅朵

昨天兒靠著冷靜的招待去長春看了這一齣戲, 這齣戲運鏡很慢很漫, 我想這樣才能將這齣戲的重點--聲音和等待,完全的表達出來吧. 冷靜新的髮型很令人冷靜, 聽她眼睛閃亮彽講著她的理想時, 似乎其實我們也都在等待,冷靜低分析然後等待,等待之中伴隨點著甜甜的期待. 哈!講遠了.這是片愛情片. 值得去看. 而且長春戲院附近有蠻多好吃的,今天又跟人跑去逛了一次. 死肥子! 明兒還得早起! good night!

今天變成了假面試官

好累

剛近大學傻傻的樣子

已經有一人準備去商研所面試了

晚上聽了n遍的演練 加上幫忙亂嘴砲的英文自介 希望能有所幫 忙.

龜寶! 加油加油!

你家中部的壟斷事業是否能到北部就看你了!!

好軟

總覺得有種使不上力的感覺

亞當吃下的那顆蘋果現在讓我有種莫名窒息的感覺

甜甜的感覺哪去了 不見了

只剩下那最硬最裡面的 hardcore

能不能讓週遭都空下來 我得好好消化一下

突然睡不著

突然想起住在樓上差點被我敲頭的仁兄..幹零娘!! 不要狗眼看人低, 套句則志說的話:你是用大便刷牙嗎? 不過還好我沒打..got so impulsive that moment 阿懷說 我罵髒話都是用英文罵(真假的!)想想也挺好笑的.只記得第一個語助詞是幹 其他真的忘光了 人在怒氣滿滿真的會做一些奇怪的事 我最不能接受瞧不起人的人 , 什麼事都可以講, 大家都是人 都要大便 小便 ,看A片 .不過今天看到曉事開心沒事還不錯,以後跳樓別跳這一種三樓的 要就去101保證善災善災跟大地融為一體.
該睡了! 阿宅!

少年偉政的快樂

這學期終於有點開始的感覺了, 這學期好單純只有學業要煩惱, 上大學以來第一次覺得自己是學
生.有空就去悠悠哉哉玩個板 , 甜甜的夏天就像是人行道散發出女性赫爾蒙的季節,一群臭臭的宅
男拿著破破的板連板帶人低被吸引去,在人行道上散發出噁濫的男性赫爾蒙,你濃我濃.disssgusting! 上學期去北教大表演算是句點了吧. 其實真的是有點兒緊張, 雖然已經不是第一次接這種活動了.不過當天人真的不少大概有150~200人吧.沒想到迷幻公園那麼多人知道, 不過謝謝大家如此得支持,台下大概有40幾個是自己人. 謝謝當天硬被我跳的兩人(也不用我說是誰了), 曉事(真的是表演型選手), 阿境的casper , 興勾的...(忘了做什麼), 卡丁的.....(好像根本沒做什麼..?!), 阿光的芭雷舞式的精湛演出,小蔣的最大招..frontside, 超勾在台下的守護, 攝影達人shinfu 的偷拍. 自己在台上真的好弱,最後幾乎變成主持人在台上嘴砲.. 跳兩個人的時候還差點沒跳過(不想瞞著大家其實我在偷看第一排大家說的那個胸部很大很正的女生) ,還好則至沒去不然下面椅子可能被搬起來卡了.不過還好最後一個ollie下臺有成.... 幹! 那邊人表演前還說聽說你是最強, 真的是最強,強到回老家了. 不過表演還算是ok吧!(I guess?) 　這篇好像lag很久,剛剛討論完報告回來宅一下的時候突然想到,真的是宅了,只能宅著想東西.....
　　
　

a MTV from THE VERVE

THE VERVE LYRICS

"Bittersweet Symphony"

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life

Try to make ends meet

You're a slave to money then you die

I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down

You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet yeah,

No change, I can changeI can change, I can change

But I'm here in my moldI am here in my mold

But I'm a million different people from one day to the next

I can't change my mold

No, no, no, no, no

Well I never pray

But tonight I'm on my knees yeahI need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me,

yeahI let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free nowBut the airways are clean and

there's nobody singing to me now

No change, I can changeI can change, I can change

But I'm here in my moldI am here in my mold

And I'm a million different peoplefrom one day to the nextI can't change my mold

No, no, no, no, noI can't changeI can't change

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life

Try to make ends meet

Try to find some money then you die

I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down

You know the one that takes you to the places where all the things meet yeah

You know

I can change, I can changeI can change, I can change

But I'm here in my moldI am here in my mold

And I'm a million different peoplefrom one day to the nextI can't change my mold

No, no, no, no, no

I can't change my moldno, no, no, no, no,

I can't change

Can't change my body,no, no, no

I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down

I'll take you down the only road

I've ever been downBeen down

Ever been downEver been down

Ever been down

Ever been down

Have you ever been down?

Have you've ever been down?

A PHOTO

This photo was taken by Shinfu in the auditorium when I tried to get enough spee to ollie down the long stairway of it. I like this one because of the lighting ,which makes me feel i am led to somewhere , though i have no slightest idea about whether i am going to land it or land my face on the ground after i paddle through the doorway.

some skating videos of myself which i like a lot

It is not a big trick at all, just simply a ollie, but this ollie is something i really wanted to do when i was in high school ,and this 6-stairs stuff is a stairway of the auditorium in my alma mater,which I thought a impossible shit to conquer. I did this ollie when i was a sophomore, and i vaguely remembered that i did this ollie within like 5 tries or something; i hadn't even planed to do that that day , indeed, it was a spur of the moment. Ha! Something unprepared is something best prepared. U might think this sucks ,but it really shocks me and keeps me afloat in skating.

Most importantly, i have to give my sincere thank you to those two filmers: Pat and David.

The review of "Dead Poets Society"

In this movie, all those characters have their own unique personalities, but they all have something in common─ the love for poem. Mr. Keating (the teacher of those young, wayward ,naïve boys) imbue them with some ideas and way of reading a poem, which is deemed unorthodox,and after a span of months companio with Mr. Keating those boys,consequently, get a deeper insight into not only poems but also their inner fears and flaws. The part when Mr. Keating tells them to tear the page ,introducing the guide to a tool of evaluating a poem , of the textbooks apart really astounds me. It means you have to think for yourself and those poems should not be degraded by this subjective evaluation. And Neil ,the passionate actor , sacrifices his life to the destiny of acting in the end . Neil kills himself naked and I think this means he doesn’t have to carry along those worldly burden anymore: the fetters of the demand from his father .

"What is Poetry?"

To start it off, I have to say that trying to define poetry is just like attempting to convey your own religion to other people ,which is delicate and invidious. John tries to define poetry through comparing poetry with other forms of writing , including prose ,novel,eloquence and so on, or even painting. And i think poetry is amorphous and sometimes a assorted mix, which is really hard for those people who try to distinguish one from another,just as John puts in the article that '' Many of the greater poems are in the form of fictitious narrative; and, in almost all good serious fictions ,there is true poetry. Though convolved, those forms of art do have one thing in common : the expression of human feelings.To sum it up, i feel it is really meaningless to try to define poetry too precisely, we should leave some space to them instead of trying to put them seperately into some isolated compartments, which, I thought , might strangle the creativity .